Seek The Lord Early

Gabby and Taylor have a temple baptism trip with the young mens and young womens group scheduled for some Tuesday evening this month. Their was also an option to go an additional time at 5 AM on a Satuday morning. I told both of them if they wanted to go they needed to get themselves up and there. No pushing dragging or guilting from me. (Its a new thing Im trying called free will not so free consequences) .

I was up at 4:30 making Shawns lunch, when Gabber rubbing her sleepy eyes stumbled into the bathroom. 10 minutes later Tay was up and at 5:05 they were in his car heading out! Im gonna go back to bed very content that they have chosen to seek the Lord early, very early this morning.

Primary Lessons

This is my 8 year olds at our class party.

I in very indulged fashion hand picked my class this year all 11 of them. Its been a challenge handling that many chatterboxes during primary, but I would not have it any other way. All of these children were my first nursery class in this ward in 2003. I am deeply attached to them. They are my investment. Im not what one would call a church scholar. There are so many things I have not examined or studied. I know that is a very important piece of my life that I have not partaken of . So its possible as I say this that its me covering for my slackerish ways. When I was called to be the Primary President at 28 I was most un prepared and I let Heavenly Father know it. I laid on my bed with myriads of resources planning a sharing time. This would often take the better part of a day( again not a scholar). So I decided out of desperation that the theme of my presidency was going to have to be simple ... so I decided on love . If I got not one other message to a child then they would know I loved them. On my last Sunday I kneeled a the door and hugged every child andtold them I loved them why I cried huge crocodile tears all over their little clip on ties and dresses. I had no idea the impact it would have on me personally.

Love is now the only measurement of success I use. I have no control over what information makes it to thier little subconcious. They are often busy whispering about Star Wars Rogue Squadron attacks . I dont know if I have strengthened their testimonies while they are leaning back on their chair hitting the wall. I cant measure my impact after primary because usually I need tylenol and a nap. Bottom line at the end of the day I only know that they know I consistently unceasingly love them. Thats what I take home that brings me back again next week. Im sure this sounds like a sanctimonious sermon but my true intention is to say what this has given me. My way of being is better 3 hours on Sunday than at any other time. Im more patient, more gentle, more deligent, more holy than at any other place in my life and I like it... I like me when Im with them!! I could not have done one more thing to be true to who I know I should be. I cry more and laugh more and my heart hurts it is so full . On the first Saturday of most months Im completely uplifted and touched to attend their baptisms and be reminded of the blessed and guided lives they have begun. While I drive home I feel renewed and humbled that I to can have that change in my life whenever I choose it. I want my way of being with those 11 children to creep into every place in my life. Mostly this blog is a testament of the truth that I know. "Where love is there God is also ." Tis love we get when love we bring. Turns out that making the investment in them collected big dividends for me.