Primary Lessons

This is my 8 year olds at our class party.

I in very indulged fashion hand picked my class this year all 11 of them. Its been a challenge handling that many chatterboxes during primary, but I would not have it any other way. All of these children were my first nursery class in this ward in 2003. I am deeply attached to them. They are my investment. Im not what one would call a church scholar. There are so many things I have not examined or studied. I know that is a very important piece of my life that I have not partaken of . So its possible as I say this that its me covering for my slackerish ways. When I was called to be the Primary President at 28 I was most un prepared and I let Heavenly Father know it. I laid on my bed with myriads of resources planning a sharing time. This would often take the better part of a day( again not a scholar). So I decided out of desperation that the theme of my presidency was going to have to be simple ... so I decided on love . If I got not one other message to a child then they would know I loved them. On my last Sunday I kneeled a the door and hugged every child andtold them I loved them why I cried huge crocodile tears all over their little clip on ties and dresses. I had no idea the impact it would have on me personally.

Love is now the only measurement of success I use. I have no control over what information makes it to thier little subconcious. They are often busy whispering about Star Wars Rogue Squadron attacks . I dont know if I have strengthened their testimonies while they are leaning back on their chair hitting the wall. I cant measure my impact after primary because usually I need tylenol and a nap. Bottom line at the end of the day I only know that they know I consistently unceasingly love them. Thats what I take home that brings me back again next week. Im sure this sounds like a sanctimonious sermon but my true intention is to say what this has given me. My way of being is better 3 hours on Sunday than at any other time. Im more patient, more gentle, more deligent, more holy than at any other place in my life and I like it... I like me when Im with them!! I could not have done one more thing to be true to who I know I should be. I cry more and laugh more and my heart hurts it is so full . On the first Saturday of most months Im completely uplifted and touched to attend their baptisms and be reminded of the blessed and guided lives they have begun. While I drive home I feel renewed and humbled that I to can have that change in my life whenever I choose it. I want my way of being with those 11 children to creep into every place in my life. Mostly this blog is a testament of the truth that I know. "Where love is there God is also ." Tis love we get when love we bring. Turns out that making the investment in them collected big dividends for me.